Tuesdays

Death is just an uncomfortable topic. However in TWM Maurie easily discusses impending doom. With a smile on his face and a head full of memories Maurie teaches his former student about the joys of life. If there were one thing i were to take away from that film i would say it was the famous Maurie quote: Once you know how to die, you know how to live. Its one of those sayings that makes you feel inspired yet confused. What exactly does that mean? You cant go back and live life once your dying....I guess now its time to tell you a little bit more about me. I am absoluetly terrified of death. I can honestly say my number one fear is death. I cant imagine a life without life....I can imagine feeling the joy of waking up after a full nights sleep, seeing the beauty in leaves changing color, and talking to the amazing people in my life. I fear being trapped in a box after death. I fear being dust that is spread than forgotten. Im not ready. I fear i wont ever be ready. I hope maybe by the time im old enough to die future technology will have created something to consume that will prolong life....high hopes i know. Im excited to get older. Its not that i fear being old. There is such peace in growing old...i just dont want to ever leave.....It might be because i have no faith. Im not sure if i believe in heaven or in an after life. I feel science fights all these things and wins....I can do nothing. That is why Maurie meant so much to me. I loved watching the movie because it gave me a sort of piece of mind about the whole thing. Hopefully i will have a lot of memories to smile about like Maurie did.